Life Goes On

Life has to go on~it must, and it will.

It is necessary that each day propel us forward. We've all heard of it, the Circle of Life...you're born into this world; you live; and then you're gone. In this life, there will be death. Its a fact, its nothing new. Its not a surprise. It is what it is. We lose people that we love; we lose people that we don't love as much. Why, in the midst of life, when death strikes, do we regress and act as if this situation has never happened to anyone but US???? Why do some of us move forward gracefully, and others digress to the point of dying within themselves?

I am full of questions, though short on answers. Should we feel guilty for moving foward after losing someone we love? What if others around us want to constantly, and consistently, drag us down with them, when in fact we have tried so hard to get up each day and move on? How should we handle these dark clouds around us? Do we alienate them (further) from our lives, or blindly jump into the chaos they create, all in "the name of family"? Who decides what the limits are? In the grand scheme of life, shouldn't we expect death, and maybe even learn to welcome it when its time?

Shouldn't someone be in charge of keeping all of these clowns in line? I refuse to let my life become a circus and am proud of the fact that in my own little family unit, we have grieved, grown, and pressed on. What effect will this decision have on me?

That's an answer that I do know...I will be a one (wo-)man show.

And, what do we do when someone bypasses boundaries that we have strived to set? Confrontationally or gracefully, there will always be someone that isn't satisfied. How, in good faith and for personal sanity, can we draw the line and be sure that someone doesn't come along with an eraser? And when the lines are crossed, how do we move foward as broken souls?

This has been a mildly frustrating day. If you try to call me and my phone doesn't work, its because I have disconnected it!!!! We all know I wouldn't really do that, but it sure is tempting! Don't worry, a glass of wine and I will be back to my normal self.

Please share thoughts.

Until again,
~Red

*Scottie, you are always included in my one (wo-)man show. No worries for you!